dont look now...
but i think were being followed.
I SAID DONT LOOK!
you looked didnt you.
oh gee.what a surprise
narcisism
TimTamTomTan
this is where the boring info goes.
13/8/91
Sunday, May 11, 2008
i feel mixed inside. i dont wanna get over anything. i just wish things sorted themself out. i feel like im trapped under an icey river and the current just sweeps me away. and the more i try to make things right the more i screw it up. ITS CRUMBLING IN MY HANDS and i cant do anything about it. im just watching from third person. literally. just like my life its dying on my again and again and again. my life just feels so empty and when i was with you my skys grew rainbows and flowers sprouted on pavements. now things are just a dull grey like it used to be. like its going to be. im just sorry. and i cant say it enough. i dont think anything i do will be enough. im selfish, somehow without realising it becomes all about me. and i just keep taking the wrong path. i mean i know you tried to help but i just kept doggedly going in the wrong fucking direction. and now its blown from shit to shittier. i shouldnt be alive. and by saying that i become selfish again. life is unfair im being selfish again. on the good news when you said it. i couldnt help but cry. so atleast i got that outta the way. i feel like ive fallin into a pit that i cant get out of and there are ants. lots of ants everywhere just bitting away at me. nibbling off my being. my rocky hide. :ehpathi deeeprashun: something that makes you emotionless. something that i suffer from. i felt again. it hurt bad and youl always have somewhere to run to cause the earthquakes screw shit up. litterally. il be there.. watch for the moods. watch from the clouds. this is gonna be an interesting week.( on other note. in this post i was angry sad annoyed irreated happy down fucked around all at the same time) (but that isnt bad. were all human and one day we gotta feel just that i do that in wierd ways) now that thats outta my system..* flush!* and its gone.
oh fuck. the toilet is cloggy. still not over it here i was, there i go. 10:39:00 PM
