dont look now...
but i think were being followed.
I SAID DONT LOOK!
you looked didnt you.
oh gee.what a surprise
narcisism
TimTamTomTan
this is where the boring info goes.
13/8/91
Friday, August 01, 2008
i dont know why i keep talking like i dont give a damn. but actually i do. i just cant seem to shake out of the 3rd person mode where i watch things happen and i either dont respond or respond negatively. its like the blue in my world turned to a deep shade of brown. and everything looks dull and insignificant. oh well. things are the way they are. its probably best for us if we distanced. cause it hurts me too much to see you or hear you or know you've got your love and i dont. i am jealous. i am a fucking zealot. i am in trouble. everyday i live is just another day of boring meaningless mud that i trudge through. and if you still read. id rather be slapped than ignored. rather be a girl than a guy. rather live than die. rather fly than crash. rather be mainstream then to be nothing. rather be cool than be geeky. now. im. numb. like my tongue after eating icecream. its a feeling i cant shake, with a reason unknown. i apologise to deaf ears and hope you will take my super apology. if you never want to talk i understand. and il live with the concequences of my actions which i take full responsibility of. but asking wont do much. things cant be taken back and hope is lost stays lost. so souless and hopeless i remain.
-tom.
i dont know why around my birthday a head on collision with all things bad happens. but this birthday, i dont wanna live past it. count down 13, close your eyes. and sing like the fat lady on a holiday. 12 11 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 bye, here i was, there i go. 9:19:00 PM
